Mute

Have you ever wondered how long it had been since you last spoke a word out loud or to anyone? I go on these temporary jobs once in awhile, they will give me my direction and then I go to work and do not say a word to anyone and just work my butt off to make a good impression. While I am working I think a lot about the things that have happened lately, things that are bothering me and once in awhile I will think to myself, "wow, I haven't talked in a really long time, who was the last person I even talked to?". Sometimes I will even say something out loud to myself just to hear my voice, to reassure myself that I can still speak. Once in awhile it makes me sad to think, I got ready all morning without saying one word, drove here without saying anything or singing to a song and then I do my work generally without saying anything.

When I was little I was very shy and people used to bug me by joking around by saying things like, "would you shut up, I can't get a word in edge wise", which generally when someone says that to me, its me that can't get the word in edge wise.

I find it very funny that some people take people's quietness or shyness as being a snob. I was once told that some people that I had met for a total of maybe ten minutes thought I was a snob and it blew me away that someone could think that. People never think that I am just shy or that I am just listening and don't have anything to say or even that I am not comfortable with being myself around these people yet.

Its really hard to be shy or quiet and show people that you are not being a snob and are really a nice person. Sometimes even when I don't feel comfortable being outgoing with a group yet I do it anyway just so that they wont think anything negative about me.