I know its been forever since I have posted but I am now doing Pampered Chef so I have been insanely busy. I think I will be able to balance things a lot better once I have been doing it longer. Its funny because we had this employee at work that used to be a chef and couldn't get the hard manual labor that he was being trained on so we called him the pampered chef...lol. I submitted my first show today which I am happy about, it was pretty easy so thats good, and I forgot when you host a party you don't get charged shipping so what I got was cheaper then I originally thought.

I went to see Last Kiss last weekend and it was so great! I thought for sure I was going to leave the theatre depressed and hating men but, I didn't I think with growing up you realise that unfortunately cheating does happen and there isn't much you can do about it. It was a sad movie but nice at the same time and me and Laura loved it. So if you are looking for a good cry this weekend I give the Last Kiss two thumbs up. http://www.apple.com/trailers/dreamworks/thelastkiss/

OH! And can I just tell you I am so excited that the Lake House is out on dvd now!!! I loved that movie. This is another chick flick that you kind of have to be open about because, lets face it, sending letters over 2 years through a mailbox will never be able to happen but as long as you just accept that in this movie it can you will love it. Me and my sister went to see it in the theatre and I was full out balling. I know I am a sap but whatever, I loved it, and I have been dying to see it ever since.

So my suggestion for this weekend on the rainy Saturday is buy a whole bunch of 10 cent candies, chips and chocolate, rent The Lake House and have a night in with a box of kleenex.

Warning: Mushy material ahead!

It is 12am and it is way passed my bedtime but I just had to come on here and write about an amazing thing that happened tonight.

Lately I have been feeling very much like the black sheep of my family even more so then I normally do. A little while ago my little sister spent a few days at my older sisters house and wrote on her blog about how much she had missed her etc and what fun she had. This really hurt me because she has never missed me like that and I always have to beg her to come visit let alone stay for a few days. That got me thinking about how much closer they are then I am with either of them and how they are so much alike and I am just the boring sister. I have always felt like everyone likes them better then me because they are funnier and more outgoing then I am, and no matter what anyone told me I always felt this way.

Tonight I was at a Pampered Chef party at my moms house and her friend was there that until later in the evening I hadn't realised was quite religious. She was very nice, outgoing and funny. Later in the night when the pampered chef girl left we got talking about how I was thinking about selling it and how I have always been very shy up until a few years ago, even when I was little I wouldn't even go up to pay for things I was so shy. Then my moms friend pipes up and says, " you know that is so sad that you are like that, don't think because your sisters are more outgoing and laugh and tell jokes that you don't have anything to offer anyone and that you don't touch people everyday, because you do". At that moment I almost started crying in front of this women I had just met hours ago. It meant so much to me that someone I had just met saw something special in me and evem though I barely talked the entire night saw that I was a beautiful person inside and out. As I am typing this I am balling because she had talked about certain things that had happened in her life that god had told her to do or guided her and I honestly felt that god told her to tell me this so I would know that I am not so different and people do notice me and appreciate me.

Well its 8:41am and I just woke up, really don't feel like working today but not much has changed since yesterday. I got woken up at 2am by Darryl slamming cupboards and objects, I originally thought he much be making a five course meal but in reality he was just making juice, I thought I was going to kill him. So from that point on I could not get to sleep, growing more annoyed every minute. 4am was about the time I finally fell back asleep. The good thing is that I am working from home today so I got to sleep in until 8:30am.

I decided last week that I think I am going to get a part time job for Christmas. I would feel better having my own money to spend on presents and just that nice buffer should anything go wrong that we have the extra money there. Plus if I am working almost every weekend, we wont be going out and spending money. I am trying to think of all the stores that I would like to work that are around my area. I am definately never going back to Future Shop even if the asshole manager did get transfered. Its like a cult there and everyone parties with everyone else and if you don't then you are just an outcast. I partied with everyone but I hated feeling like I had to and I am now at the point in my life that I don't want to go out in party. Plus no one from there has kept in touch with me at all so I am obviously not that much of a friend to them.

I am so tired and so blah feeling I think I am going to have to change my blog layout.