Take all your big plans and break them, this is bound to be awhile

I just wanted to let you know how much I love you. As we were watching that movie Elizabethtown and the wife was speaking at her husbands funeral talking about how much she misses him and how much she has to learn without him. It got me thinking that we have been togetherfor 3 years soon and I love you more then anything and can't imagine my life without you. I can't even imagine how much I will love you after another 50 or 60 years and then losing you. Then yesterday someone sent me an e-mail that I filed where I have all of the e-mails you sent me back when we were doing the long distance relationship thing and you were so sweet and amazing in those e-mails it made me really miss you. I know it sounds stupidbut when you go on afternoons I miss you so much, I get to talk to you during the day and we spend every minute together when you are on days so I know it sounds crazy. It makes me really scared that I am that much attached to you, I normally try to keep emotional distance with my boyfriends sothat if anything were to happen I would be okay but with you, its different. Before, whenever I got into a relationship I would keep guys that were interested in me close so that if anything happened with my relationship I wouldn't have to be alone, I would have that someone on call. Now its different, any guy that has a thing for me that doesn't respect my relationship is deleted from my msn and blocked. If we were to break up I would be lost, and that scares the shit out of me.