Tattoo's are something I have always wanted to get but I am way too chicken of what other people think and the pain to ever get one. I think when I am older and in a mid-life crisis I will end up getting one to feel young or cool again. I hate that I care what other people think but unfortunately thats me. Even though I care what people think sometimes I try to convince myself otherwise and think I will just do what I want, and then I don't because in the end I am a pussy. (I know I hate that word)

I was just watching Miami Ink and all of the cool tattoo's that people get and wishing I could get one of my own. I honestly have thought about getting a cute little small one of a dragon fly or a butterfly but since I don't have my body the way I want it I was thinking about maybe getting one when I do as a kind of yeah me thing.

I have also always wanted to get a nose ring, I think it would look really good on me, after it healed. At first it would look nasty because I have super-sensitive skin so it would be infected for 6 months straight but after all the puss was gone I would be hot..lol. Darryls parents hate piercings, especially facial piercings. I have already gotten a piercing which they are not fond of but I think if I got a nose ring they definately wouldn't like it, and Darryl has told me he would hate it too. It pisses me off sometimes that people try to control you like that, I want it, its my body, fuck off. But, no, I am a good girl and I listen. But I swear one day I am going to get it and if it looks like shit fine, I will take it out but I think it would look hot.

What piercings or tattoo's do you have/want ?

Got this from 100 Reasons Why I Hate myHusband and to avoid her knocking on my cyberdoor I decided to do it..lol j/k.

1. If you had to set your own work schedule; 8 hours per day; 5 days per week. Which days and hours would you choose? 9am - 5pm ( I hate early mornings)

2. What Reality Show would you be on and why? (stolen from J. http://ramblingsofamadpiggie.blogspot.com/) Big Brother

3. What is the last book you read? Don't Cry Now by Joy Fielding

4. There are many songs that bring us back to a certain memory. What song(s) do you HATE to hear for that very reason? Sex and Candy by Marcy Playgroud

5. If you could go back in time to be any place in history, what time would you choose and what country/place? I think I would choose the '90's and I would love to live in Portugal

6. Do you know more than one language? Which one(s). Nope

7. What is your favorite blog? 100 Reasons Why I Hate myHusband

8. What is your favorite web site? www.dilbert.com

9. Your house is on fire, the people and pets you love are safe and you can grab one other "thing", what are you taking? my guitar

10. You have $100 to spend in the next hour. How are you spending it? (Saving it or giving it away not permitted.) clothes

This cartoon is dedicated to Stolenswan who I thought of as soon as I saw this....

You know what is interesting? The power of the internet. I have dealt with a lot lately regarding the power of the internet and it just boggles your mind. I have met people from all over the world without having ever seen them face to face and doing it right from the comfort of my own home.

At one time I found the internet very addictive and the people that were on it. I loved how men spoke to me, even if it was a lie it felt nice to hear when the people you want to hear it from aren't saying it. That fact alone got me into some trouble I am not terribly proud of but I do not regret. I met someone who I thought was my soul mate while I was still with my boyfriend at the time. I knew it was wrong but somehow I justified it to myself, thinking he doesn't care what I do anyway and he treats me like shit so he deserves it. In the end it was true what I thought, he didn't really care what I did. Too many times I have seen the internet berak up relationships and make people doubt their partner or tempt their partner to do things they normally wouldn't. Its gotten to the point that I can't take porn pics anymore for fear they will get posted on the net..lol j/k.

Don't get me wrong, I love the internet and I would go crazy without it but I gaurantee the majority of the people reading this know someone that the internet has effected either bad or good in a big way. I love the millions of possibilities with the internet, you could meet anyone, on any side of the earth at any given time, and the unmeasureable amount of information that is at your fingertips.

But, its still scary how it can effect people.
...my thoughts are with you...out there......

hmmm.....what to say...well everything lately has been interesting. You know that place I had an interview that I spoke so poorly about? Yeah, I am working there now. I spoke with them about the commuting thing and the pay issue and its all been worked out. They are really cool to work for and it seems like it will be a really good opportunity.

As soon as I agreed to take this job I got two other job offers, of course. One of them I went to the interview, and the interview portion went alright but the testing portion went horrible. I don't know what happened but tests I have done a million times before, I bombed. I just keep telling myself if it was meant to be it will be.

I have been really stressed about what path to take and which decision is the right decision since, there have been many wrong turns I have taken in my life I keep worrying that whatever decision I make will be the wrong one.

I haven't been on the internet in over a week and I am going into withdrawals, I just keep thinking about all the people I told I would write and haven't and what Chrystal is up to, etc. My daily reads like internet lovers and 100 reasons why I hate my husband I haven't had a minute to read which sucks.

It seems the minute I come home I have fifty billion things to do, and by the end of that I am too tired to even think about doing anything else.

Its been forever since I have done an entry of "you know what I hate?!" so here I go:


You know what I hate?! When people waste my time with dumbass interviews. Yesterday I had an interview about 30 minutes outside out town in bum fuckville which sucked but they told me they were going to be opening a office in my city in a month and I would only have to commute until then. Sounds good to me. So I get there and there is this girl I trained at F-Shop that looks like complete trailor trash (they told us to go casual and she was dressed up). She has her kids and her husband in the car, says to me, " it was fun finding the place eh?" to which I kind of laugh and say yeah (I had no trouble finding it). Then she speed walks ahead of me to the door and begins kissing ass. So anyway I just roll my eyes and think, whatever. I get into the house where the candidate will be working for no more then a month and it is a mess, I have to watch where I walk so that I don't step on anything. Trash bag continues to go on about how horrible it was finding the place and how her directions were crap (right to the girl) and I am thinking yeah go on, you are only making me look better. So she takes us both into an "office" to tell us about the job and then interview us seperately. The office was a mess first off AND it had a toilet in it. Trash bag was late so the girl interviewed her first which I think is wrong, I mean if you make the employer wait you should have to wait too, I on the other hand was right on time. So she asks me to take a seat outside the room and gives me a pamphlet to look at. I go out of the room and take a survey of the room I am supposed to sit in and think hmm......where am I supposed to sit. Every couch had a ton of crap on it, so I walk over to one and gentle push the depris over so I can sit down and begin reading the pamphlet to which I find a mosquito carcass inside...mmm...nice. I am ultra impressed at this point, how I had to take 4 hours off work, miss 4 hours pay, drive an hour and a half there for this bullshit waste of time. Then she interviews me and tells me the even more impressive news, I would have to work one night a week, alternating weekends, it would be part time and I would get $10/hr. Four strikes right there. The thing that kills me even more is if they had mentioned that in the ad I wouldn't have applied, what was the sense in lying and wasting mine and their time. I don't mine the drive, working nights or every other weekend but, I am not taking a $3.50 pay cut to drive the same distance and work less hours.

There is my rant, have a great day!

FRIIIIIG!!!! I had a whole post written and then I went to spell check it and of course it blocked the pop-up so I told it to allow pop-up's and it deleted my whole post. Damn I hate whent that happens. Anyway I did start out the last post with sorry I haven't posted in forever, I have been so busy/tired. My days lately consist of, go to work, come home and work, go to bed, go to work, come home and work, go to bed, and so on.

We have been doing soem improvements on the house lately which have been really nice, we have been working together and when its done we have ourselves to be proud of. We are slowly working into harder things and trying to get all of the rooms painted as well.

We started off with our bedroom, since it is big a dark colour doesn't look too bad. So we painted it chocolate brown, put up some bamboo curtains and a new fan and it looks awesome. We just have to get a new bedroom set for the room so it will all match but we can't quite afford that yet.

We are currently working on our kitchen, putting ceramic flooring down. We have linoleum floor there now that was peeling up and was stained so I definately thought that was one of the first things that needed replaced. Ripping up the floor is proving to be quite a challenge but once that is done I think things will move a lot smoother. My mom gave us some of her left over tiles from her family room that she did but we are not sure if we will be able to find the same one to buy more of them, so we are thinking about saving them and using them for the upstairs bathrooms or the laundry room.

My weekend was great, did a lot of relaxing and working which is a nice combination. I went strawberry picking with Darryls mom which I have been meaning to do for the last two years so I was really happy I got to do it this year. On Monday I went to make jam with them and due to my lack of patience and reading the instructions I almost ruined the jam. I ended up having to call Lo Lo in a panic, she calmly walked me through a solution and the jam turned out great.

I better get back to work, have a great short week everyone!