hello old friend

So...how do you like the new look? I needed a change but I am still not completely happy with this look yet so I am still on the hunt for another template. I have started this book that I got at a garage sale and it is pretty good so far. I am 100 pages into it out of 600, it is totally different from the type of books I normally read so it is a nice change of pace. There was one part that made me think it was touching on an area that I wasn't sure I wanted to read about but she did it tactfully which I was glad about.

Today I went to a job interview about an hour away at a job agency that went really good. I was pretty annoyed because I left two hours before my appointment to take into account that it was going to be in rush hour traffic and to leave time for anything to happen. I got there an hour early so I wasted some time talking to my cousin, getting a drink since it was horribly hot and cleaning out the car, so I arrived there about 15 minutes early and they had me waiting for a half an hour before they had me do anything. This really annoys me because they made an appointment with me yesterday so its not like they didn't know I was coming. I did really good on the testing, I got mostly 90% and just under on them, which was also rated between beginner and advanced and I scored advanced on the majority of it. They had the guy in charge of the hiring department come meet me since they were so impressed with me which was nice. I just wish the hiring agencies were the ones that hired me because I seem to impress them but then never get placed in an actual job.

I am really looking forward to this weekend, we have a ton of stuff planned that should be a lot of fun. Saturday we are going to a funny car race about 4 hours away and then on Sunday we are going to a theme park close by with a bunch of people. Should be awesome, I haven't been on a ride in about two years and they have a bunch of new ones that I haven't been on yet so I think we are going to be there until close as long as it is not too hot.

Have a great day all! Sorry its been so long since I have written I will be better I promise.

anyone got some spare change?

Well since I am not a bum whats new....being broke and all not a whole hell of a lot. My garden is looking fabulous, I have kept in touch with all of my friends more then I normally do, I am eating everything that isn't nailed down...oh! and I am breaking out from stress. Awesome! My got me a hammoc that I cannot wait to try next week when the weather is nice, just lie on it, tan and read a book.

Can I just tell you, American Idol results I am not at all impressed with. Next topic.

There are not enough jobs where I live that pay half decent, I apply to places everyday and I have only had one interview. I have a lot of experience and great references so I don't know what the issue is. Well I do know what it is, I used to work at a hiring agency and once we posted a job for an administrative assistant, I am not kidding you, on the first day we received about three hundred resumes, so when you are up against upwards of three hundred people you tend to be overlooked.

I went with my sister today to buy her a new computer and let me tell you, I am totally jealous. Its really nice with a lcd monitor, a dvd burner and all of the bells whistles. I mean my computer isn't bad but...its not new. I know I am so hard done by.

Thats it for me! Ciao sista's and brotha's!

Its not healthy...for me to feel this way

I never thought I would bring up the fact that I watch American Idol again but alas, I must. Last week a very sad thing happened in American Idol land...Chris Daughtry got voted off. I would just like to say to all of those American Idol fans out there, what were you thinking?! I mean I really can't complain because I don't vote but I seriously thought that he was going to make it to the end, or bottom two at the very least.

After that curve ball was thrown I have no idea who is going to win American Idol now, I always thought that Katharine would win but now I am not so sure.

In other news I got a sweet hat yesterday that I am so excited about. Normally I only wear baseball hats and that is only when I have been camping and don't get to shower or I am going out early in the morning and haven't showered. I first saw this hat when I wasi n Cuba at Christmas and saw a girl that looked a lot like me with one on, ever since then I thought, "man I should get one of those hats". Than I had Christina and D over for a hair dying party and I tried D's hat on and voila! I looked hot. Here is a pic of it.....only mine is army green.


Also speaking of the hair dying party, I totally stole Christina's look and dyed my hair like hers. I dyed the top half light brown and the botton half dark brown and I love it!! My hair looks like poo right now and I am wearing the hat but as soon as it looks less crappy I will post a pic.

See ya!

I'm not dead after all!

You'd think with all of the time I have had on my hands that I would write a lot more often. I haven't really had too much to talk about other then I have been looking for a job and working on the house. I haven't had any interviews yet which really sucks but I am going to keep trecking.

Its 8:19am and I am sitting at my desk alone thinking, I know its been a dangerous past time but I think I need it. I am trying to figure out what I want to do as a career. I have the opportunity to go for training for something else or take a junior position in another field but I don't know what. I bought this book called what color is your parachute, it is supposed to be a good book to help you figure out what career you would be best at.

I really enjoy human resources and I have a lot of office experience but no HR experience what so ever. I was thinking about taking a couple of accounting courses so that I would be better equiped to try and get a job in HR but I don't know. The only company that would hire me with no work experience in human resources would be a small company or as a junior hr. Now a junior hr gets your foot in the door but it pays like crap, and now that I have a house and bills to pay I need a job that pays well so it would mean I would have to get a part time job as well.

I have also thought about getting a couple of part time jobs for the rest of the summer and then get a good full time position in September.

I have no idea what to do but what I do know is that I am going to get some resume's together and start handing them out at the businesses around my house so that if I do get a position at one of them I would be able to ride my bike there and save on gas.

In other news my sister just moved into her house on Friday, I am so happy for her! There is nothing like buying your own house after years of paying rent to the man. It is a really nice house and just the perfect size for her and her bf. We were lucky the rain held off enough on Saturday they we were able to move all of the stuff that had to be moved that day without getting very wet.

I am going over there tonight to sleep over and have a slumber party. Chingy is going to dye my hair for me and we are going to stay up watching movies I think, then tomorrow we are going to get up and move the rest of the furniture with my moms cube van from work. I think she will definately be relieved when everything is put away and in its place and she can relax.

Thats it for me, have a great day!

Come away with me in the night..

Well Friday I lost my job. Yes I got laid off, because I was at work every single time I posted and they track which web sites we go on I didn't want to post about how horrible it was there or how badly I was treated, and that everyday I wondered if it was going to be my last there.

Friday the guy that does all of the firing came in at about 8:30am which is not totally unusual because he also does a lot of traveling and stops in on his way from campus to campus. The minute he walked in I gave one of my trainers the scared look that said, its been nice working with you. So he said to him, "you know you have to stop dropping by you are starting to scare people, to which mr.fireman (isn't that clever I just thought of it now?) said, yeah I know.

While he was talking to my instructor one of the girls got a group message on yahoo and asked me if I got it, it was about the owner and some managers being away the following week, I told her that I did not and that set off the warning bells in my head. They didn't send me the message about them being away because I wasn't going to be there and the fireman was here, so put two and two together and I am going to be in the unemployment line come Monday.

My instructor tried to talk to him as long as he could hoping that if he was just here for a visit he would leave soon. Soon my instructor ran out of stuff to say so he went to get some breakfast, as he was about to leave the fireman's cell went off so I wispered to my instructor what I thought was going to happen so he said call me later and left.

The fireman came over to talk to me and the phone kept ringing and I kept getting busy, which is really unusual for a Friday. But then when it finally quieted down he had tears in his eyes and said, "well Jackie they sent me down here....and I hate to do this....but it's nothing against you they said you are a great person and you are great at your job but they need someone who is also good at sales".

I knew it was comimg so I wasn't really shocked but I was still devastated though. I tried to grab everything that I had brought there and leave everything that was theirs. It was horrible shaking like a leaf having him watch me to make sure I left all of the keys and didn't take any company property.

The funny thing about it all is that they took my sales away about a month ago so I was no longer in charge of sales. Hmmm got "laid off" for a job I don't even do...weird.

Hope your luck is better then mine! Have a great day!

a meme!

A Meme taken from Stolenswan

lasts-last place you were: at home getting ready for work
soda: diet caffeine free mugs at about 9:30pm
kiss: last night
last movie seen: History of Violence (absolute crap)
last cd u listened to: Three Days Grace
last bubble bath: Valentines Day
-last time you cried: while watching the Story of Us
-last alcoholic beverage: smirnoff ice green apple shortly before getting kicked out of the bar two Saturdays ago
-have you ever dated someone twice: yeah that was the thing to do in school date and break up, then date and break up
-have you ever been cheated on: I don't think so
-have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: yes, althought technically they kissed me
-have you ever fallen in love: yes.
-have you ever been depressed: yep
-have you ever been drunk and thrown up: oh hell yeah
-have you ever hit another person: yeah
-have you even skinny dipped: nope

7 states you’ve been to (I'm also including provinces, since I'm Canadian): (I am changing this to 7 place I have been because other wise i have nothing to write)
1. Ontario
2. Cuba
3. Dominican
4. Portugal
5. Spain
6. Niagara Falls
7. Toronto

6 things you’ve done today.
1. woke up late
2. washed my hair in the sink since I didn't have time for a shower
3. drove to work
4. brushed my teeth
5. cleaned up a bunch of blood from a nose bleed I had
6. bitched

5 favorite things in no particular order
1. sex
2. relaxing on the deck on a nice warm day
3. buying new stuff
4. eating junk food
5. relaxing at the cottage

4 favorite colors
1. black
2. army green
3. brown
4. pink

3 people you can tell anything to
1. Darryl
2. Laura
3. Chrystal

2 things you want to do before you die:
1. get married
2. have a long-term career

1 thing you regret:
1. Mike

Love...true love

I was talking to my sister about what to write about for a post and after giving me a bunch of ideas I decided to write about my first love. For me, this is a hard thing to write about because I am really not sure who my first love was. I remember when I was in public school whenever I had a boyfriend I would write Love, Jackie at the bottom and vise versa but I really don't think I knew what love was at that time.

Then I had a boyfriend in highschool that we always said I love you to eachother and again I really don't think I knew what love meant. I think it was just a novelty to love someone. We did spend every waking moment together and I did have very strong feelings for him. When we broke up I was heart broken and didn't get over it for months and of course in highschool its even harder to get over someone because of how everyone knew you as a couple. Hmm maybe that was love. Well I will tell you about this one and then lead into the next one that definately was love. We were friends but hewas kind of geeky looking and even though he asked me out several times I said no everytime and he continued with much persistance. We hadn't really talk all summer because of me turning him down right before the beginning of school that hurt him so bad that he ended our friendship. We had a nutrition class together that we were both taking for an easy credit and lack of anything else to take. During that class we started being friends again and then eventually he asked me out once again, once again I turned him down and he again ended our friendship. I always kind of got made fun of for hanging around him but I didn't care, he was nice and funny and thats all that mattered to me. The end of our friendship was really hard so I gave in and said I would go out with him. After six months of "going out" he told me in a computer room full of people that he wanted to break up, that he was miserable and he couldn't stand it anymore. I was heart broken but in the end I knew it was for the best since we were having a lot of problems.

Now during this time when I was having problems, right near the end actually Lo Lo introduced me to her boyfriend at the times best friend. He was in college so I thought that was really cool. She told him I was 18 since him being 20 and me being 17 would just not go over well. We started writing eachother back and forth once me and the previous boyfriend broke up. We started to get to know eachother through e-mail and I found myself looking forward to his e-mails everyday and skipping class to talk to him on yahoo. The ex and some of my friends start harassing me at school, making fun of me constantly, sending me harassing e-mails just generally making it hell to be at school. During this time the new love interest got really supportive and helped me learn to ignore the taunts and to not care about them. Soon we started dating and I fell in love with him quick, he was in college, had a car, moved here from just outside Toronto. A couple entries back I spoke about how this one ended but as was the last one it was for the best.

Even though I was heart broken at the end of both of those relationships I moved on to bigger and better things each time and each time it was for the best and I don't regret those relationships at all. With each one I learned a lot and don't know what kind of person I would be today without them.

There is only one happiness in life,to love and be loved.
- George Sand -

To the world you may be one person,but to one person you may be the world.
- Bill Wilson -