Do you ever just sit and think about your life and think, wow I would have never thought I would be here.
When I was in my last relationship, I loved him but I was not in love with him. We got along great and I think that is why we stayed together for so longbecause it was like friends with benefits all the time only I paid for everything. What guy wouldn't stay in a relationship like that. After two years of us being together he told me that he could never see himself marrying me and although I have the same feeling he said it and that makes him the asshole.For some reason even after he made me feel unwanted I continued to date him for another year and a half. During the majority of our relationship I wentout to the bar all they time, flirted, danced with other guys, really just carried on like I was single, only I never crossed the line. He was so layed backwhen it came to that stuff that really I was allowed to do whatever I wanted within reason without him getting jealous. One New Years a guy kissed me and I cried and apologised to him profusely to which he thought it was no big deal. Several times I thought he doesn't care what I do because he is doing someone else on the side anyway. To this day he still denies he did so I guess I will believe him.
Anyway back to what I was getting at, when we broke up I was really upset and I thought I would never get over it but I also found myself sort of relieved and with a new freedom. I thought to myself what if that was as good as it gets, what if that was who I was meant to be with and thatwas as good as it will ever be? I got thinking I could've made it work, thinks weren't THAT bad. After dating dud after dud the more I thought that, thatwas true that I missed out on 'the one'. There were times when we almost got back together but, I realised if that was 'the one' I don't want one, and settled in with the fact that I would be single fora very long time.
I never would have thought at 24 that I would be settled down with someone and own a house. My dad once said to me when I was 12 that I would be the first one to have kids, and at first I took that as an insult but I think he just meant that I had a boyfriend in school at a young age and everythingin life would be the same. Once me and my last boyfriend broke up and my sister was with a long time boyfriend I thought, "boy were you wrong". But now three years later I am thinking he may have been right.
Friday, March 31, 2006
Thursday, March 30, 2006
This calls for a toast, poor the champagne!
I am having a pretty damn good day so far, first off I woke up and I weight myself and I lost two pounds, yeah me! Then I borrowed some change off of Darryl and got my favorite breakfast at Timmy's, and Laura actually had time to talk to me this morning for the first time in a week or so. That is the bestmorning Ihave had in two weeks, how bad is that. One thing that kind of sucks is its rather gloomy outside when it is supposed to be sunny today, oh well. I have my guitar lesson tonight which, I am hoping it is still warm afterwards so I can go for a walk but I wont hold my breathe. Lately by the timeI get off work the sun has gone away and it is kind of cold, keeping in mind that I am a huge baby when it comes to cold so it is probably nice out formost people. Mind you this is a billion times better then winter so I am definately not complaining.
I made a tuna sandwhich this morning and my hands still smell like tuna even though I have washed them three times since then. It is driving me insane. Also after I got to work I realised that tuna is supposed to make your breathe smell and like I said I have a guitar lesson. For some reason whenever I have my guitar lesson I always get really dolled up. I am not attracted to him so why do I care if he thinks I am pretty or not. Maybe its that fact thathe probably doesn't think I am pretty that makes me want to make him think I am...I dunno..I have a bf do I could care less if he thinks I am hot or not.
This weekend we are going to spend the majority of it catching up on things we have been meaning to do for the past little while which I am prettyexcited about. Here is our list : 1) put up the new shower head I got 2) format the computer 3) sand and stain the muskoka chairs 4) get my car readyto bring out. That not a bad list, it is definately achievable. Of course I will be doing laundry and cleaning between that as well but those are the majorthings that have to get done and then I think we are going to go to the movies at night just so its not work all week. Oh and on Friday we have to file our taxes...eek!
I made a tuna sandwhich this morning and my hands still smell like tuna even though I have washed them three times since then. It is driving me insane. Also after I got to work I realised that tuna is supposed to make your breathe smell and like I said I have a guitar lesson. For some reason whenever I have my guitar lesson I always get really dolled up. I am not attracted to him so why do I care if he thinks I am pretty or not. Maybe its that fact thathe probably doesn't think I am pretty that makes me want to make him think I am...I dunno..I have a bf do I could care less if he thinks I am hot or not.
This weekend we are going to spend the majority of it catching up on things we have been meaning to do for the past little while which I am prettyexcited about. Here is our list : 1) put up the new shower head I got 2) format the computer 3) sand and stain the muskoka chairs 4) get my car readyto bring out. That not a bad list, it is definately achievable. Of course I will be doing laundry and cleaning between that as well but those are the majorthings that have to get done and then I think we are going to go to the movies at night just so its not work all week. Oh and on Friday we have to file our taxes...eek!
Monday, March 27, 2006
shhh...I think I hear spring....
I am totally stressed out. I look forward to the weekends so much lately in hopes that I can relax but I just seem to be in a constant state of stressedout. I am loving that the weather it nicer lately and I think being able to hang out outside and relax a bit when I come will be really nice. I am really looking forward to going home at 5 and sitting out on my muskoka chair and relaxing on the deck while I cook dinner. I was even thinking about snuggling underneath a blanket and reading. I also want to workout a bit so depending on how warm or cold it is I may go for a bike ride.
We went to Darryls parents place this weekend which was REALLY nice. We went out to the cottage and it was so nice outside and peaceful out therethat it was a really nice break. We went for two walks since it was so nice. His mom actually asked me if I lost some weight which made me feel really good. I haven't, but it felt really nice anyway especially when I had just gotten up early that morning and done a little cardio work out.
On May 2-4 I might be seeing "the ex's", my ex always rents a cottage right where Darryls parents cottage is for May 2-4 and his friends really miss me and they haven't seen me for about 4 years or so, some of them less and some of them more. I was talking to one of them and I said if they do thatagain this year that we should meet up and hang out for a bit, so I want to look REALLY good. Also, Darryls ex apparantly goes there every year too sowe may also see her. She used to be bigger then me but apparantly she has lost a lot of weight and is discustingly skinny so I want to lose some weight anyway.
Have a great sunny day all!
We went to Darryls parents place this weekend which was REALLY nice. We went out to the cottage and it was so nice outside and peaceful out therethat it was a really nice break. We went for two walks since it was so nice. His mom actually asked me if I lost some weight which made me feel really good. I haven't, but it felt really nice anyway especially when I had just gotten up early that morning and done a little cardio work out.
On May 2-4 I might be seeing "the ex's", my ex always rents a cottage right where Darryls parents cottage is for May 2-4 and his friends really miss me and they haven't seen me for about 4 years or so, some of them less and some of them more. I was talking to one of them and I said if they do thatagain this year that we should meet up and hang out for a bit, so I want to look REALLY good. Also, Darryls ex apparantly goes there every year too sowe may also see her. She used to be bigger then me but apparantly she has lost a lot of weight and is discustingly skinny so I want to lose some weight anyway.
Have a great sunny day all!
the rest of the 100 meme's
100. I love the smell of fresh cut grass
99. my favorite smells also consist of strawberry, green apple and vanilla
98. I hate the smell of lavender
97. whenever I smell oil I think of my dad and how his truck always smelled like that when he would pick us up for weekends at his house
96. me and my sister would always ball our eyes out and beg my mom not to make us go on weekends when my dad had us
95. I have never had surgery
94. I just learned how to swim two years ago
93. I have broken my wrist
92. one of my favorite bars is a little country bar down the street from me
91. my favorite ice cream is mint chocolate chip
90. I want to travel all through Europe
89. I am always cold
88. I am very clutsy
87. I act like a blonde at times which is very embarassing
86. I took Business Administration in college
85. I know I need to lose weight but it pisses me off when people point it out
84. I am 5'6
83. I have brown hair and brown eyes
82. I used to have two peacocks and two pheasants as pets
81. I get sea sick
80. I used to get car sick but its gone away now
79. I usually ruin suprises
78. I love them but rarely can someone suprise me
77. My 24 birthday was the best birthday I have ever had, my sisters suprised me with a birthday party with most of the people I love most there
76. I sometimes watch movies just to make me cry
75. I have watched The Story Of Us probably 40+ times and I ball my eyes out everytime
74. I used to be so shy, I wouldn't be able to go to a cash to pay for something
73. I would always make my little sister do it
72. I was not popular throughout highschool
71. highschool was probably the worst time period in my life
70. I had so much fun in college that I never finished it
69. I really regret that
68. I am shy when I first meet someone
67. once I get to know people I am very outgoing
66. I don't have very many good friends
65. I love to tunnel my feet under peoples bum to warm them up
64. I love my hair to be played with
63. my favorite author right now is James Patterson
62. my favorite author changes every few months
61. I use two nicknames online cutiestar and busty babe both I did not come up with
60. I hate my name
59. I get road rage
58. I am impatient
57. I hate vegetables
56. I used to have a huge crush on Brad Pitt, now I think he is disgusting
55. my childhood crush was Jonathan Brandis
54. I think about one of my ex boyfriends and how I hurt him all the time, he now hates my guts and it really bothers me, I wish I could apologise
53. I used to cry like a moose when I was a kid
52. I wish I looked like Kate Hudson
51. I have asthma
99. my favorite smells also consist of strawberry, green apple and vanilla
98. I hate the smell of lavender
97. whenever I smell oil I think of my dad and how his truck always smelled like that when he would pick us up for weekends at his house
96. me and my sister would always ball our eyes out and beg my mom not to make us go on weekends when my dad had us
95. I have never had surgery
94. I just learned how to swim two years ago
93. I have broken my wrist
92. one of my favorite bars is a little country bar down the street from me
91. my favorite ice cream is mint chocolate chip
90. I want to travel all through Europe
89. I am always cold
88. I am very clutsy
87. I act like a blonde at times which is very embarassing
86. I took Business Administration in college
85. I know I need to lose weight but it pisses me off when people point it out
84. I am 5'6
83. I have brown hair and brown eyes
82. I used to have two peacocks and two pheasants as pets
81. I get sea sick
80. I used to get car sick but its gone away now
79. I usually ruin suprises
78. I love them but rarely can someone suprise me
77. My 24 birthday was the best birthday I have ever had, my sisters suprised me with a birthday party with most of the people I love most there
76. I sometimes watch movies just to make me cry
75. I have watched The Story Of Us probably 40+ times and I ball my eyes out everytime
74. I used to be so shy, I wouldn't be able to go to a cash to pay for something
73. I would always make my little sister do it
72. I was not popular throughout highschool
71. highschool was probably the worst time period in my life
70. I had so much fun in college that I never finished it
69. I really regret that
68. I am shy when I first meet someone
67. once I get to know people I am very outgoing
66. I don't have very many good friends
65. I love to tunnel my feet under peoples bum to warm them up
64. I love my hair to be played with
63. my favorite author right now is James Patterson
62. my favorite author changes every few months
61. I use two nicknames online cutiestar and busty babe both I did not come up with
60. I hate my name
59. I get road rage
58. I am impatient
57. I hate vegetables
56. I used to have a huge crush on Brad Pitt, now I think he is disgusting
55. my childhood crush was Jonathan Brandis
54. I think about one of my ex boyfriends and how I hurt him all the time, he now hates my guts and it really bothers me, I wish I could apologise
53. I used to cry like a moose when I was a kid
52. I wish I looked like Kate Hudson
51. I have asthma
Friday, March 24, 2006
50 meme's
50. I love doing quizes and answering questions
49. I love music
48. ever since grade six I wanted to see Green Day live
47. last year I accomplished that goal and it was better then I imagined
46. I have 5 piercings
45. I want to get a nose ring
44. I wont do it because of how people close to me will react
43. I have a ring that I have had since I was in grade 8 that I never take off
42. I just got a promise ring on Valentines Day that I never take off either
41. I am addicted to junk food
40. I am terrified to take a diabetes test for fear that I am diabetic
39. I hate being naked
38. I now have to wear glasses to read while I am on the computer
37. I went 23 years without needing glasses
36. I own two cars
35. one is going to the junk yard next week
34. I have a boyfriend of 3 years
33. we are technically common law
32. this is a lot harder then I thought it would be
31. I want to lose 50 pounds
30. I hate my teeth
29. I am getting braces in September
28. I have a cat named Salem
27. My mom bought her for me when I was away in the summer 6 years ago
26. me and my dad have nothing in common
25. he wanted me to be a boy
24. I am not sure if I want kids
23. I am taking guitar lessons
22. I used to play the cello
21. and the violin
20. I want to buy a cello one day
19. I hate the winter
18. I have two sisters
17. I am the middle child
16. I also have a half sister and brother
15. I have never met my brother
14. I want to get a tattoo but I am scared of the pain
13. I love singing
12. I have no idea if I am a good singer or not
11. I used to hate reading but now I love reading
10. I want to go hand gliding this summer
9. I want to meet Nick before I die
8. Darryl hates that idea
7. I just got blue contacts
6. My most prized pocession is my guitar
5. one of my favorite places is Darryls parents cottage at the beach
4. I love playing badminton
3. one of the only games I have beaten Darryl in is basketball
2. I hate cardio
1. I am the first one in my family to get their license
It is wierd I thought saying 100 things about myself wouldn't be that hard but it really is, so I decided to do 50 now and then think about the other 50later. It is scary because doing these makes you want to reveal more then you should just to fill in the spaces. Stay tuned...
49. I love music
48. ever since grade six I wanted to see Green Day live
47. last year I accomplished that goal and it was better then I imagined
46. I have 5 piercings
45. I want to get a nose ring
44. I wont do it because of how people close to me will react
43. I have a ring that I have had since I was in grade 8 that I never take off
42. I just got a promise ring on Valentines Day that I never take off either
41. I am addicted to junk food
40. I am terrified to take a diabetes test for fear that I am diabetic
39. I hate being naked
38. I now have to wear glasses to read while I am on the computer
37. I went 23 years without needing glasses
36. I own two cars
35. one is going to the junk yard next week
34. I have a boyfriend of 3 years
33. we are technically common law
32. this is a lot harder then I thought it would be
31. I want to lose 50 pounds
30. I hate my teeth
29. I am getting braces in September
28. I have a cat named Salem
27. My mom bought her for me when I was away in the summer 6 years ago
26. me and my dad have nothing in common
25. he wanted me to be a boy
24. I am not sure if I want kids
23. I am taking guitar lessons
22. I used to play the cello
21. and the violin
20. I want to buy a cello one day
19. I hate the winter
18. I have two sisters
17. I am the middle child
16. I also have a half sister and brother
15. I have never met my brother
14. I want to get a tattoo but I am scared of the pain
13. I love singing
12. I have no idea if I am a good singer or not
11. I used to hate reading but now I love reading
10. I want to go hand gliding this summer
9. I want to meet Nick before I die
8. Darryl hates that idea
7. I just got blue contacts
6. My most prized pocession is my guitar
5. one of my favorite places is Darryls parents cottage at the beach
4. I love playing badminton
3. one of the only games I have beaten Darryl in is basketball
2. I hate cardio
1. I am the first one in my family to get their license
It is wierd I thought saying 100 things about myself wouldn't be that hard but it really is, so I decided to do 50 now and then think about the other 50later. It is scary because doing these makes you want to reveal more then you should just to fill in the spaces. Stay tuned...
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Take all your big plans and break them, this is bound to be awhile
I just wanted to let you know how much I love you. As we were watching that movie Elizabethtown and the wife was speaking at her husbands funeral talking about how much she misses him and how much she has to learn without him. It got me thinking that we have been togetherfor 3 years soon and I love you more then anything and can't imagine my life without you. I can't even imagine how much I will love you after another 50 or 60 years and then losing you. Then yesterday someone sent me an e-mail that I filed where I have all of the e-mails you sent me back when we were doing the long distance relationship thing and you were so sweet and amazing in those e-mails it made me really miss you. I know it sounds stupidbut when you go on afternoons I miss you so much, I get to talk to you during the day and we spend every minute together when you are on days so I know it sounds crazy. It makes me really scared that I am that much attached to you, I normally try to keep emotional distance with my boyfriends sothat if anything were to happen I would be okay but with you, its different. Before, whenever I got into a relationship I would keep guys that were interested in me close so that if anything happened with my relationship I wouldn't have to be alone, I would have that someone on call. Now its different, any guy that has a thing for me that doesn't respect my relationship is deleted from my msn and blocked. If we were to break up I would be lost, and that scares the shit out of me.
Monday, March 20, 2006
I got a man to stick it out
Today is officially the first day of spring...YEAH....break out your bikes and basketballs,....oh wait its still colder then a mother f'er out there. When can you honestly say has the first day of spring actually felt like spring. I think they should move it back and give us a realistic goal to look forward to. EvenMay should be a realistic goal right??!! WRONG! A couple years ago it actually snowed on May 2-4. This is complete crap we get 5 months of winter and three months of summer, great.
Do I bitch too much? Yeah I didn't think so either...moving on.
I am going to try and practice guitar a lot more this week, since we are getting into singing and playing I am really nervous and want to be prepared. I have never honestly sang in front of anyone before who wasn't related or sleeping with me so, I am really worried that he is going to look at me likesomeone just ran their nails down the chalkboard when I start to sing. I also have to make a cd of the songs that I am trying to learn so that he canlisten to them and guide me on how to play them a little bit better. Being that he teaches a lot of people, a lot of different types of music it is hard to keep the tune a certain song has clear in your head.
Do I bitch too much? Yeah I didn't think so either...moving on.
I am going to try and practice guitar a lot more this week, since we are getting into singing and playing I am really nervous and want to be prepared. I have never honestly sang in front of anyone before who wasn't related or sleeping with me so, I am really worried that he is going to look at me likesomeone just ran their nails down the chalkboard when I start to sing. I also have to make a cd of the songs that I am trying to learn so that he canlisten to them and guide me on how to play them a little bit better. Being that he teaches a lot of people, a lot of different types of music it is hard to keep the tune a certain song has clear in your head.
Friday, March 17, 2006
Happy St.Patty's Day all!
I am going to rant again so get ready for it....
Yesterday I get off work and just as I get in the car my cell phone rings, its my sister and she wants to know if I can bring her some smokes. Well I don't have any money so I have to go to her work, get her bank card, get the cigarettes and then bring them back to her. I let her know that I am on my way to my guitar lessons but as soon as I am done I can do it. Just as I get out of my guitar lessons, I call home to tell Darryl that I will be a bit longer because I have to do something for Valerie and he says he was trying to get a hold of me to pick up some pepsi but again I have no money so he tells me to put it on my credit card. (Grr another stop, thats annoying). So I go to Valeries work and not only is my mom there but two additional people that could go get her smokes. (Grrr thats annoying) My mom says that she will go get them for her and so I leave to go to pick up the pepsi. I go to Shoppers to get it and get two 12 packs so I am trying to balance them both and unlock my car door, and since all of my seats are occupied withmy guitar or my bag I have to put it on the floor but not before I smack myself in the face with one. Then I get home and I am trying to balance twowe packs of pepsi, my guitar and my bag while tredging through snow that has not been cleared trying not to kill myself on the ice on the landing. Then the door is locked so I have to bang on the door with my guitar case. Now after all of this I am not in a good mood, I am kind of annoyed and I just needto calm down, then Darryl says to me, "are you upset AGAIN" I felt like kicking him in the nuts.
And tredging through the snow may not seem like a big deal to you guys but when I was supposed to have the garage every two weeks, and he has had it for the past month it annoys me. AND when I have to tredge through the snow and get the bottoms of my pants wet because he will not shovel and then I spend the rest of the day with wet pants that are making me freezing it kind of makes me annoyed.
Okay I am done venting, there is so much more that has happened but I think I may have a heart attack if I even begin to think about it.
Have some green beer today, I know I will! As my wise sister said, "you have to support drinking holidays".
Yesterday I get off work and just as I get in the car my cell phone rings, its my sister and she wants to know if I can bring her some smokes. Well I don't have any money so I have to go to her work, get her bank card, get the cigarettes and then bring them back to her. I let her know that I am on my way to my guitar lessons but as soon as I am done I can do it. Just as I get out of my guitar lessons, I call home to tell Darryl that I will be a bit longer because I have to do something for Valerie and he says he was trying to get a hold of me to pick up some pepsi but again I have no money so he tells me to put it on my credit card. (Grr another stop, thats annoying). So I go to Valeries work and not only is my mom there but two additional people that could go get her smokes. (Grrr thats annoying) My mom says that she will go get them for her and so I leave to go to pick up the pepsi. I go to Shoppers to get it and get two 12 packs so I am trying to balance them both and unlock my car door, and since all of my seats are occupied withmy guitar or my bag I have to put it on the floor but not before I smack myself in the face with one. Then I get home and I am trying to balance twowe packs of pepsi, my guitar and my bag while tredging through snow that has not been cleared trying not to kill myself on the ice on the landing. Then the door is locked so I have to bang on the door with my guitar case. Now after all of this I am not in a good mood, I am kind of annoyed and I just needto calm down, then Darryl says to me, "are you upset AGAIN" I felt like kicking him in the nuts.
And tredging through the snow may not seem like a big deal to you guys but when I was supposed to have the garage every two weeks, and he has had it for the past month it annoys me. AND when I have to tredge through the snow and get the bottoms of my pants wet because he will not shovel and then I spend the rest of the day with wet pants that are making me freezing it kind of makes me annoyed.
Okay I am done venting, there is so much more that has happened but I think I may have a heart attack if I even begin to think about it.
Have some green beer today, I know I will! As my wise sister said, "you have to support drinking holidays".
Thursday, March 16, 2006
My movie..
This I stole from Stolenswan. It is basically if your life was a movie what would the music be for each of these situations. This is really hard and Christina can attest that it took me forever. Enjoy.
Opening Credits: Buddy Holly - Weexer
Waking Up: My My My - Armand Van Helden
Average Day:Stay or Leave - Dave Mathews Band
First Date: You're Beautiful - James Blunt
Falling in Love: Brighter then Sunshine - Aqualung
Love Scene: Six Underground - Sneaker Pimps
Fight Scene: Down with the Sickness - Disturbed
Breaking Up: Screaming Infedelities by Dashboard Confessional or Only One by Yellow card
Back Together: Stick With you - Pussy Cat Dolls
Secret Love: Tonights the Night - Janet Jackson
Life's Okay: Feel Good Inc. - Gorillaz
Mental Breakdown: Save Me - Unwritten Law
Driving:Torn- Natalie Imbruglia
Learning a Lesson: This Time's For Real - Ill Nino
Deep Thought: Let Go - Frou Frou
Flashback: Basketcase - Green Day
Partying: Lets Get Retarded - Black Eyed Peas
Happy Dance: Dance Dance by Fall Out Boy
Regretting: Cemetary Drive - My Chemical Romance or Fall to Pieces by Velvet Revolver
Long Night Alone: Only in Dreams - Weezer
Death Scene: Everybody Hurts - R.E.M
Closing Credits: Closing Time - Semisonic
Opening Credits: Buddy Holly - Weexer
Waking Up: My My My - Armand Van Helden
Average Day:Stay or Leave - Dave Mathews Band
First Date: You're Beautiful - James Blunt
Falling in Love: Brighter then Sunshine - Aqualung
Love Scene: Six Underground - Sneaker Pimps
Fight Scene: Down with the Sickness - Disturbed
Breaking Up: Screaming Infedelities by Dashboard Confessional or Only One by Yellow card
Back Together: Stick With you - Pussy Cat Dolls
Secret Love: Tonights the Night - Janet Jackson
Life's Okay: Feel Good Inc. - Gorillaz
Mental Breakdown: Save Me - Unwritten Law
Driving:Torn- Natalie Imbruglia
Learning a Lesson: This Time's For Real - Ill Nino
Deep Thought: Let Go - Frou Frou
Flashback: Basketcase - Green Day
Partying: Lets Get Retarded - Black Eyed Peas
Happy Dance: Dance Dance by Fall Out Boy
Regretting: Cemetary Drive - My Chemical Romance or Fall to Pieces by Velvet Revolver
Long Night Alone: Only in Dreams - Weezer
Death Scene: Everybody Hurts - R.E.M
Closing Credits: Closing Time - Semisonic
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
did I mention I dont have patience
On todays episode of you know what I hate....
When people call and act like I should kiss their ass to take the course or just like fucking with me. First off they usually ask to speak to someone about the heavy equipment or truck courses that we offer because they don't realise that a woman could know about that. Then they sit there and waste 30 minutes of my time by asking me retarded questions when they aren't even planning to take the course. How do I know this you ask? Well first they ask where we are located, I tell them and then they go on about how far that is for them to drive and if I have any place closer, well if I did I would have volunteered that information when you asked where we were located. So they have already decided it is too far and they are not going to drive here and the continue to ask me questions about our course. So I tell them about it and how they will receive a license to run that machine oncethey have completed the training, to which asshole replies there is no such thing as a license. I feel like saying, do you want to hear about the course or not?! Because licenses are not required for operating a machine but it still exists. Then he goes on asking about the job placement that we have, he found it very suprising that people that complete our training actually get a job, he said that he has been calling people and no one is hiring and I said well I don't know where you are looking but I go online and there are a lotof jobs out there. So
idiot says: well what about up north
me: what about it
idiot: are there jobs up there
me: well how far up north
idiot: way up north
(this went on for awhile)
idiot: Northwest Territories
me: well I dont really look there I normally look in Ontario, Alberta, Manitoba and B.C
idiot: well what about iraq? I am sure they are hiring a lot there
me: I don't know like I said I don't really look there
idiot: well everytime a bomb hits they need someone to come in and rebuild
silence
idiot: so this is in ***** ?
me: yep
Idiot: do you have anywhere closer to me?
me: nope!
idiot: k bye
and hung up
Give me a break!
When people call and act like I should kiss their ass to take the course or just like fucking with me. First off they usually ask to speak to someone about the heavy equipment or truck courses that we offer because they don't realise that a woman could know about that. Then they sit there and waste 30 minutes of my time by asking me retarded questions when they aren't even planning to take the course. How do I know this you ask? Well first they ask where we are located, I tell them and then they go on about how far that is for them to drive and if I have any place closer, well if I did I would have volunteered that information when you asked where we were located. So they have already decided it is too far and they are not going to drive here and the continue to ask me questions about our course. So I tell them about it and how they will receive a license to run that machine oncethey have completed the training, to which asshole replies there is no such thing as a license. I feel like saying, do you want to hear about the course or not?! Because licenses are not required for operating a machine but it still exists. Then he goes on asking about the job placement that we have, he found it very suprising that people that complete our training actually get a job, he said that he has been calling people and no one is hiring and I said well I don't know where you are looking but I go online and there are a lotof jobs out there. So
idiot says: well what about up north
me: what about it
idiot: are there jobs up there
me: well how far up north
idiot: way up north
(this went on for awhile)
idiot: Northwest Territories
me: well I dont really look there I normally look in Ontario, Alberta, Manitoba and B.C
idiot: well what about iraq? I am sure they are hiring a lot there
me: I don't know like I said I don't really look there
idiot: well everytime a bomb hits they need someone to come in and rebuild
silence
idiot: so this is in ***** ?
me: yep
Idiot: do you have anywhere closer to me?
me: nope!
idiot: k bye
and hung up
Give me a break!
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
is summer here yet???
As it was getting warmer this weekend I found myself getting happier and getting out of my grouchy mood that I have been in for the last little while. I was beaming as I stood out on my deck in sock feet and a t-shirt and didn't freeze my buns off. I stood out there with a perma-grin on my face thinking about how great it is going to be once we have a patio set and the bbq and we will be able to hang out back there and relax. During the summerit doesn't really feel like we actually get one because the only time we really got to spend outside before was on the weekend. I am really looking forward to finally having a backyard of my own and be able to just relax out there and enjoy the warm weather. I was so excited when I walked out there with Laura on the weekend and she noticed that the bulbs I planted were "peaking". I am really excited for the spring when I can see how everything looks where I put it since it is hard to tell when all you are planting is a bulb and I am a amateur after all.
I am really looking forward to going camping since we only did it once last year. I think we are going to take a couple of trips on our own or with my sisters to provincial parks as well as going up north to "the land".
I should start having a column that I write in here everyday or so called, "You know what I hate?" because I will be sitting thinking of something elseto write and then something annoying will happen and I will start to write a sentance starting with, you know what I hate. So here is one of those that I just have to write about.
I hate when one of my instructors will be running a class and they will put on a movie and then come out and lean on my desk and want to talk to me.You see I have one of those receptionist desks that there is a little mini ledge/desk above my desk, which doubles as a leaning post apparently.Honestly I don't mind talking to them but when they lean on my desk, watching everything I am doing/typing until I stop everything and talk to themit is kind of annoying. Especially when I am crazy busy like i have been the past couple days and I can't afford to stop what I am doing. The morningsI am usually the busiest so when he comes out when I am in the middle of fifty things on the way to lean on my desk I feel like saying, "don't evenstart with me, I am busier then shit"...lol.
I am really looking forward to going camping since we only did it once last year. I think we are going to take a couple of trips on our own or with my sisters to provincial parks as well as going up north to "the land".
I should start having a column that I write in here everyday or so called, "You know what I hate?" because I will be sitting thinking of something elseto write and then something annoying will happen and I will start to write a sentance starting with, you know what I hate. So here is one of those that I just have to write about.
I hate when one of my instructors will be running a class and they will put on a movie and then come out and lean on my desk and want to talk to me.You see I have one of those receptionist desks that there is a little mini ledge/desk above my desk, which doubles as a leaning post apparently.Honestly I don't mind talking to them but when they lean on my desk, watching everything I am doing/typing until I stop everything and talk to themit is kind of annoying. Especially when I am crazy busy like i have been the past couple days and I can't afford to stop what I am doing. The morningsI am usually the busiest so when he comes out when I am in the middle of fifty things on the way to lean on my desk I feel like saying, "don't evenstart with me, I am busier then shit"...lol.
Monday, March 13, 2006
Somebody's got a case of the Mondays!
Today has been one crazy day, but a good crazy day. I was worried that this week would be as bad as last week but so far so good, *knock on wood*.Yesterday I had a great day with Darryl, we went shopping for patio furniture and bbq's. Originally we just were going to go to Rona to look at someceramic tile for the kitchen and some patio stones for the patio we are going to make but then we realised that was boring and we went to Costcoand to Walmart. Costco had the lawn mower that we had wanted and with Costco nothing lasts on the shelf there so we picked it up and we also scored a wet suit there really cheap, we actually saw one at Canadian Tire later that day for $50 more that wasn't as good quality. We found a patioset that we really like at Walmart, it is the perfect size and seats six people which is good. Then we borrowed some movies from Val and went home and vegged on the couch.
Laura came up this weekend which was really nice. We hadn't seen eachother since my birthday so I missed her a lot. On Friday we had a chicken lasagna that I made and then went out to the GT Boutique!!!! So you all know I was extatic about that. I bought a really nice knitted sweater and abrown halter top really cheap and they are nice for the office. After that we pretty much just watched a movie and talked. Saturday we got up fairlyearly and went to an outlet store about 30 minutes away, went to lunch, and went to a used bookstore. After dinner we watched tv and scrapbooked until Laura and I were falling asleep on the couch.
This weekend made me really wish she lived in Barrie so that we could get together more often and help each other out more often. There are certaincooking tips and secrets she knows and I have some life secrets. Its nice to have a girl to talk to and hang out with since I don't have a lot of girlfriends.
I hate when I start writing a blog entry and I get interupted a billion times and by the time I actually get back to writing it I forget everything I wasgoing to write.
Laura came up this weekend which was really nice. We hadn't seen eachother since my birthday so I missed her a lot. On Friday we had a chicken lasagna that I made and then went out to the GT Boutique!!!! So you all know I was extatic about that. I bought a really nice knitted sweater and abrown halter top really cheap and they are nice for the office. After that we pretty much just watched a movie and talked. Saturday we got up fairlyearly and went to an outlet store about 30 minutes away, went to lunch, and went to a used bookstore. After dinner we watched tv and scrapbooked until Laura and I were falling asleep on the couch.
This weekend made me really wish she lived in Barrie so that we could get together more often and help each other out more often. There are certaincooking tips and secrets she knows and I have some life secrets. Its nice to have a girl to talk to and hang out with since I don't have a lot of girlfriends.
I hate when I start writing a blog entry and I get interupted a billion times and by the time I actually get back to writing it I forget everything I wasgoing to write.
Thursday, March 09, 2006
A meme
I stole this from Stolenswans blog.
4 Things I need in the morning:
-a shower
-clothes
-brush my teeth
-music
4 Things that turn me off
- lateness
- being too needy
- unorganization
- no sense of humour
4 Things I believe in
- Love
- Honesty
- friendship
- God
4 Things I'm afraid of
- Death
- what could be in the dark
- being home alone at night
- losing Darryl
4 Things I do Everyday
- listen to music
- laugh
- eat
- sing
4 Things I want to do before I die
- hand glide
- travel
- get married
- have my dream home
4 People I want to see
- Nick
- Darryl
- Laura
- my mom
4 Numbers that rule my Life
- 7
- 21
- 24
- 3
4 Favorite Colours
- Brown
- Black
- blue
- green
3 Names you won't answer to
- bitch
- slut
- Jacqueline (depending on the person)
3 Parts of Your Heritage
- Portuguese
- East Coast Canadian
- English
3 Things you're wearing right now
- khaki cargo pants
- army green hoodie top
- diamond necklace
3 Favorite Songs (not top 3 favorite, though)
- Stay or Leave by Dave Mathews
- Let Go by Frou Frou
- Stupid Girl - Pink (you HAVE to see the video)
3 of your hobbies
- playing guitar/learning guitar
- singing
- scrapbooking
3 Places you want to visit
- Florida (Disneyland)
- California
- Mexico
3 Ways you are unstereotypically female/male
- low maintenance
- I like my space
- I don't like boys with cars and money
4 Things I need in the morning:
-a shower
-clothes
-brush my teeth
-music
4 Things that turn me off
- lateness
- being too needy
- unorganization
- no sense of humour
4 Things I believe in
- Love
- Honesty
- friendship
- God
4 Things I'm afraid of
- Death
- what could be in the dark
- being home alone at night
- losing Darryl
4 Things I do Everyday
- listen to music
- laugh
- eat
- sing
4 Things I want to do before I die
- hand glide
- travel
- get married
- have my dream home
4 People I want to see
- Nick
- Darryl
- Laura
- my mom
4 Numbers that rule my Life
- 7
- 21
- 24
- 3
4 Favorite Colours
- Brown
- Black
- blue
- green
3 Names you won't answer to
- bitch
- slut
- Jacqueline (depending on the person)
3 Parts of Your Heritage
- Portuguese
- East Coast Canadian
- English
3 Things you're wearing right now
- khaki cargo pants
- army green hoodie top
- diamond necklace
3 Favorite Songs (not top 3 favorite, though)
- Stay or Leave by Dave Mathews
- Let Go by Frou Frou
- Stupid Girl - Pink (you HAVE to see the video)
3 of your hobbies
- playing guitar/learning guitar
- singing
- scrapbooking
3 Places you want to visit
- Florida (Disneyland)
- California
- Mexico
3 Ways you are unstereotypically female/male
- low maintenance
- I like my space
- I don't like boys with cars and money
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
our dreams are made up of real things
I never know what to write half the time, sometimes I try to be original, sometimes I just talk about life and other times I want to write exactly what I am feeling at that time on here but can't for fear that whoever I am talking about may read it and get mad. I hate that, I hate that this is supposed to be a place for me and because of people that read it I can't write whatever I want. At the same time I love my readers, to me there wouldn't be much point in having one of these without them. One feature I like about live journal is that you can make your entry public, private or just for your friends to read.
I had a dream last night that I gave birth to a baby boy it was so weird. I was lying there, going into labor, I started breathing and then I started to worry about all the immense pain I was just about to go through and then all of the sudden I felt a sharp pinch and it was over. Darryl and I were very surprised that I just gave birth to a baby because we didn't even know I was pregnant. I called my mom to tell her about it and I apologized for not telling her I was pregnant that i just missed my period and then two weeks later I was giving birth. I had my two sisters with me we were all really excited about it that we decided to go to Value Village of all places to buy some clothes. On the drive over I remember thinking to myself in the dream, how to you have newborns in the car? They are too small for a car seat, if I carry him if we get into an accident he wont be safe, so while I am thinkingthis the place I have my son in the car keeps changing. For instance, he is in the car seat and I am driving along and then oh he is too small for a carseat so next scene I am in the back carrying him etc. It was so weird having a son after only suspecting I was pregnant for two weeks but in my dream I still loved it. When I told both of our parents they were ecstatic but kind of confused that I didn't know I was pregnant. lol!
I have no idea what having this dream means, Darryl and I have been torn on the whole issue, on one hand we would love to have a child, it would makeour parents so happy and we both love kids. Then on the other hand I like having the freedom to go wherever I want whenever I want, we never haveto worry about a babysitter, as it is at the end of the day I am beat never mind having to work all day come home, make dinner, take care of the baby,clean etc. Plus in case any of you hadn't noticed our world is really fucked up, and I am just not sure I want to bring a child into it. We are also throwing around the idea of adopting because it gives a child an opportunity that they wouldn't normally have and I can't imagine my parents decidingthey didn't want me or weren't ready for me and just leaving me all alone. Darryl thinks that the reason we can't decide whether to have kids or not because we are both still young and not ready for them, he thinks once we are 28/29 we will know for sure that we either do or do not want kids.
I guess time will tell and we should probably work on getting married before we worry about whether to have kids or not.
I had a dream last night that I gave birth to a baby boy it was so weird. I was lying there, going into labor, I started breathing and then I started to worry about all the immense pain I was just about to go through and then all of the sudden I felt a sharp pinch and it was over. Darryl and I were very surprised that I just gave birth to a baby because we didn't even know I was pregnant. I called my mom to tell her about it and I apologized for not telling her I was pregnant that i just missed my period and then two weeks later I was giving birth. I had my two sisters with me we were all really excited about it that we decided to go to Value Village of all places to buy some clothes. On the drive over I remember thinking to myself in the dream, how to you have newborns in the car? They are too small for a car seat, if I carry him if we get into an accident he wont be safe, so while I am thinkingthis the place I have my son in the car keeps changing. For instance, he is in the car seat and I am driving along and then oh he is too small for a carseat so next scene I am in the back carrying him etc. It was so weird having a son after only suspecting I was pregnant for two weeks but in my dream I still loved it. When I told both of our parents they were ecstatic but kind of confused that I didn't know I was pregnant. lol!
I have no idea what having this dream means, Darryl and I have been torn on the whole issue, on one hand we would love to have a child, it would makeour parents so happy and we both love kids. Then on the other hand I like having the freedom to go wherever I want whenever I want, we never haveto worry about a babysitter, as it is at the end of the day I am beat never mind having to work all day come home, make dinner, take care of the baby,clean etc. Plus in case any of you hadn't noticed our world is really fucked up, and I am just not sure I want to bring a child into it. We are also throwing around the idea of adopting because it gives a child an opportunity that they wouldn't normally have and I can't imagine my parents decidingthey didn't want me or weren't ready for me and just leaving me all alone. Darryl thinks that the reason we can't decide whether to have kids or not because we are both still young and not ready for them, he thinks once we are 28/29 we will know for sure that we either do or do not want kids.
I guess time will tell and we should probably work on getting married before we worry about whether to have kids or not.
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Anyone have an advil the size of my head?
Today has probably been one of the worst days I have had in awhile. I was away yesterday because I was getting trained at the head office and next thing I know I come in and everything has gone crazy. All of my students are unhappy, my trainer is threatening to quit and nothing was done yesterday. Plus there were 14 messages left yesterday that were not listened to let alone returned. Needless to say I have had a retardedly busy day full of trying to fix everything that was broken. I am just starting to get a handle on everything but, there is still a lot on my to do list.
URGH! I just got off the phone, you know what I hate?! Phone calls like this:
Me:Hello
Caller: hey hows it going
me: good and you
Caller: ok, whats the matter
Me: nothing
Caller: ok bye
WTF?! What was the purpose of this call can anyone tell me?
Anyway, my drive home from up north was beautiful and relaxing. I was the only person on the road and I got to go 120 the whole way home withouthaving anyone on my ass or anything. I almost got into an accident calling Darryl and not paying attention to the road and taking a turn too quick butother then that it was good.
Last weekend was good, we had a bunch of people over for fight night, U.S vs Canada for the UFC and then just relaxed the rest of the weekend. It was nice for a change.
I have been dealing with so much crap today I am stressed out and have a killer headache. Darryl was telling me on my way home that our humidifier is leaking, our soft water tank is leaking, our furnace isn't working (which I knew) and that the main water supply was leaking. FANTASTIC!...I quit.
URGH! I just got off the phone, you know what I hate?! Phone calls like this:
Me:Hello
Caller: hey hows it going
me: good and you
Caller: ok, whats the matter
Me: nothing
Caller: ok bye
WTF?! What was the purpose of this call can anyone tell me?
Anyway, my drive home from up north was beautiful and relaxing. I was the only person on the road and I got to go 120 the whole way home withouthaving anyone on my ass or anything. I almost got into an accident calling Darryl and not paying attention to the road and taking a turn too quick butother then that it was good.
Last weekend was good, we had a bunch of people over for fight night, U.S vs Canada for the UFC and then just relaxed the rest of the weekend. It was nice for a change.
I have been dealing with so much crap today I am stressed out and have a killer headache. Darryl was telling me on my way home that our humidifier is leaking, our soft water tank is leaking, our furnace isn't working (which I knew) and that the main water supply was leaking. FANTASTIC!...I quit.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
I am a closet American Idol fan!....there I said it...
As much as it hurts me to say, I like American Idol. I used to hate watching it, the only entertaining part would be when the really bad singers are on at the beginning of the season. Once in awhile I would talk to somebosy and they would ask if I watch it and tell me how great it is so, one nighta couple of weeks ago there was nothing on tv so I watched an episode and it was pretty damn good. I really like listening to the people sing and do itin there own way, I dunno, I am a freak. In my defense last night I was so sick that I couldn't get off the couch and I had no choice but to watch it...yeah thats it....*cough*.
I friggin hate water sometimes, I know it is supposed to be good for you and you are supposed to drink 8, 8 oz. glasses a day and all that but holy crapI have to pee every few seconds and it really sucks. I am sitting here trying to work and all of the sudden I have to pee like crazy. I wish you could justput it in a reserve and then just empty it all at the same time. It is a big pain in the ass for me to go to the washroom here because I have to lock the door to the office walk down the hall and go to the bathroom. Plus I share a bathroom with the rest of the building which includes dirty teenagers thatpee on the seat, don't flush things that should really be flush etc etc. It is absolutely disgusting. Right now I have to pee so bad and there is a studentin here so I can't leave, that is what annoys me the most.
I have my orthodontist appointment on the 14th and I am actually pretty nervous. I don't want to get braces but I know I have to, I can't stand lookingat my teeth in the mirror and I can't stand smiling in pictures or look at pictures where I am smiling. My biggest motivation to get them is that I want tolook beautiful in my wedding pictures and be able to have a big bright smile without cringing looking at the pictures. What made me realise this the mostwas when I was at my cousin, Laura's wedding seeing her and her husband smiling in the pictures, she looked so happy and so beautiful and her teethare so nice and white and straight that it made me realise that I can't smile like that with my teeth, no way. Even though I will look like a geek for probably two years it will be worth it in the end. It would make me so happy if I found out that I would only have to have them on for a year and thatthey would be virtually invisible.
I am about ten seconds from peeing my pants and it doesn't look like he is leaving anytime soon so I am going. Ciao!
I friggin hate water sometimes, I know it is supposed to be good for you and you are supposed to drink 8, 8 oz. glasses a day and all that but holy crapI have to pee every few seconds and it really sucks. I am sitting here trying to work and all of the sudden I have to pee like crazy. I wish you could justput it in a reserve and then just empty it all at the same time. It is a big pain in the ass for me to go to the washroom here because I have to lock the door to the office walk down the hall and go to the bathroom. Plus I share a bathroom with the rest of the building which includes dirty teenagers thatpee on the seat, don't flush things that should really be flush etc etc. It is absolutely disgusting. Right now I have to pee so bad and there is a studentin here so I can't leave, that is what annoys me the most.
I have my orthodontist appointment on the 14th and I am actually pretty nervous. I don't want to get braces but I know I have to, I can't stand lookingat my teeth in the mirror and I can't stand smiling in pictures or look at pictures where I am smiling. My biggest motivation to get them is that I want tolook beautiful in my wedding pictures and be able to have a big bright smile without cringing looking at the pictures. What made me realise this the mostwas when I was at my cousin, Laura's wedding seeing her and her husband smiling in the pictures, she looked so happy and so beautiful and her teethare so nice and white and straight that it made me realise that I can't smile like that with my teeth, no way. Even though I will look like a geek for probably two years it will be worth it in the end. It would make me so happy if I found out that I would only have to have them on for a year and thatthey would be virtually invisible.
I am about ten seconds from peeing my pants and it doesn't look like he is leaving anytime soon so I am going. Ciao!
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